if i watched reality tv like "the hills," i would be like, "man, i need to stop watching so much of that goddamn reality television. it's really making me into a dramatic bitch!" but i never watch that show, so instead, the statement is more like "damn, juell, why are you being such a goddamn dramatic bitch?" good question; your guess is as good as mine. i guess i could blame it on hormones, but when's the last time a perfectly healthy (knock on wood) 21 year old girl went through menopausal like mood swings? actually, maybe pretty recently. recently, i was very mean to a person that means the world to me. now, in my defense, this person was making irrational decisions as well, but i digress as i can only speak about my own stupid actions. what's wrong with me?! i hope this person can forgive me. i hate fighting with my boyfriend. i would much rather be kissing him. just as rolling stone writer joe levy said to describe pavement's terror twilight album, "things hurt, and growing up is hard, but kissing helps." it's true. we will all look back at this and laugh.

yesterday i went to slant for a hot second, got some free food, and came back to my apartment for a phenomenal seminar on race, media and politics. and then i went to borders to work on my first day from 6:30 to 10:30. i am amazed at my own independence. not complete financial independence, but it's getting there. this summer helped me out a lot, but i don't think i would have been able to do it just working at the museum. the tax-free pay raise at slant really helped me save money and support myself. now i get a pay cut at borders, but not by much.

i love hyde park. i really want to go out to breakfast right now. i guess i'll do that. i also have to listen to more of future sex/lovesounds because it's amazing. i love me some jt.